Baby Wyatt...

Ok to start off i have been debating on blogging about this or not. I think i have come to grips with it now so i am finally going to do it. Well Monday the 5th of January i went to the Dr.'s at 8:30 a.m. for my monthly check up. So i got in there and my Dr. was talking to me while he was trying to find baby Wyatt's heart beat and we were just chatting. Well then 10 min. go by and he was like so have we set you up for an ultra sound yet and i said No, so then he was like ok well you can come next week or the following week so i said ok. Well then another 10 min. go by and he still couldn't find the heart beat. So now its been like 20 min. and he still can't find it so he was like well you might be getting an ultra sound today. So another 10 min. go by and he still couldn't find a heart beat. So he had spent 30 min. trying to find the heart beat. So he asks me are you bleeding or have you had any cramps and i said No. Then he was like when was the last time you felt him move? I said i thought i felt him last night. Then he says don't worry he could just be hiding behind your heart beat. There were no signs at all of him passing or that anything had gone wrong. It was a total shock to us all. So he says ok well the lady that does out ultra sounds isn't here on Monday's so i am going to send you to the hospital. So they got me an apt. at the IMC but it wasn't until 2:45 that same day. So i called Jordan and told him and he was like don't worry lets just wait and see what happens at the hospital. So i drove over to my parents house and of course lost it. So Then we waited and my mom and Jordan took me to the hospital and we got there and the Tech Dr. got the ultra sound ready and then he said "i am sorry, he is gone." WOW Jordan and my mom lost it and i just sat there in SHOCK. Couldn't believe my eyes. We could see him on the screen and he looked so dang cute. So then it hit me and we were all sitting there crying so the technician left the room and gave us a min. Then he came back in and took some pictures of baby Wyatt and told us he had Club Feet and that could of been linked to congenital heart failer or other problems that could of caused him to pass. So then he called my Dr. and told him the news and they gave me the choice either to give birth and they would start me and i would go through labor or get a D.N.E. ( a lot of people when they have miss carriages get D.N.C. but because i was 5 months along they considered Wyatt a Still Born not a miss carriage.) So they scheduled my surgery for that following Friday at 1:15. That was hard because i had to wait 4 days. Also they have figured that he had passed 2 weeks before we found out. So i was frustrated about having him in me for another 4 days when he had been gone for 2 weeks. Well so Jord, our families and i all grieved for the next 4 days until my surgery so Friday came and Jordan took me in and They said it would only be 4 hours. So Jordan decided to wait there. Well they had to put me under and then do the surgery but it took a lot longer than they expected. So i was there from 1p.m. till 8:30p.m. So i woke up and they sent us on my way. While i was recovering the Dr. had come out and talked to Jordan and told him that everything went ok and that usually he tells people to start trying again after there next menstrual cycle but we needed to wait at least 4 months. He said the surgery was pretty intense and i needed to heal before tying again. So there ya go. Little Baby Wyatt has gone back to live with his heavenly father. But all i can say is i have the Best Family, friends and Husband ever. They brought flowers and a statue and food and called me every to seconds to make sure i was ok. Jordan bought me an angel necklace to remind us of baby Wyatt. I would also like to thank everyone else who has called, brought food, or even just text ed me. I have never gone through something like this before but i am trying to stay strong. A lot of people ask how do you seem fine? But i think it hits you at different times. I will be driving and a song will come on or i will see a new born baby and it will remind me but there is nothing i can do but stay strong and just know that he is in a better place. Thanks again for every one's love and support. We love you all.